Tuesday, February 10th, I had an appointment with my oncologists office although I didn’t see my regular doctor this time, I got to meet the nurse practitioner (I will refer to her as the NP). They decided after my trip to the ER they wanted to do a follow-up to make sure I was okay for the time being. The NP was very nice and reminded me a little bit of my regular doctor.
There wasn’t much she could do other than to go over the events leading up to my trip to the ER. And then go over all of my test results with me. She was nice enough to provide a printed copy of the results to me as I like to keep copies of that kind of stuff for my own records. She also let Chris and I see the images from the CT Scan. Now before I get into what we saw I want to go back to the PET/CT Scan I had done back in November. My doctor let us see those images as well. I remember her showing us the “slices” and pointing out these little spots scattered throughout both of my lungs. None of the spots at the time was very big, but there seemed to be a lot of them.
Now jump forward to Tuesday. Chris and I looked at the images and were floored. When the doctor at the ER said “significant disease progression” I guess I didn’t grasp the gravity of the situation. The “little spots” that were there previously where now larger masses with what looked like tentacles or something reaching out in every direction. Chris later said that my lungs resembled a neural network, like the tumors were reaching out to each other. I looked at the NP and said, “Wow that looks really bad!” And she said “Yes it is.” And then confirmed that my only real hope is that the chemo will slow things down and relieve some of the symptoms. I read the findings on the copy of the results from the CT Scan and it says…
Lungs and pleura: Innumerable bilateral pulmonary masses/nodules, increased in size and numbers since prior PET/CT dated November 11, 2014. No pneumothorax. No pleural collection.
Mediastinum: Multiple hilar and mediastinal nodes, markedly increased in size and number since prior PET/CT. Port-A-Cath is in place.
So between the written findings and seeing the actual images from the CT Scan it’s safe to say this cancer is wildly out of control and forcing Chris and I to step up our timeline for my bucket list. But I start chemo soon and have hope that it will, at the very least, relieve some of the symptoms that are the most bothersome. And truly, I can’t really complain, I have so much to be thankful for. From my desk I can look out the window and see that the sun is shining, the birds are singing, and here in northern California spring is in the air as I see my daffodils are starting to grow. I have lots of people thinking of me and praying for me and helping out wherever and however they can. I feel truly blessed.