As Wendy previously posted, June 30 was our anniversary, however we weren’t able to do everything we’d planned to do because Wendy didn’t have the energy. She slept most of the trip to Tahoe and most of the way back as well. While it was a bummer that we couldn’t do the boat ride, I was happy she got to see Joe and we both realized things were starting to get worse. Apparently that was just the tip of the iceberg.
Each day since then Wendy has had more difficulty staying awake. Friday morning we tried to go get some groceries to get us through the holiday weekend, however that didn’t go as planned either. We had to cut our trip short and head home. Wendy went to bed at about 2:00 PM and short of getting up for bathroom breaks she slept until 9:30 PM Saturday. She was in pain and very confused with a bad headache. There were some other issues I won’t get into, but suffice it to say it was not a good time for her.
She had tried to call me and text me using her Cell Phone to get help but couldn’t operate it. I finally realized there was an issue when I received a garbled text message and could make out the word help among the random other characters. That was quite scary. As of tonight I have texted those people she has had recent contact with via text messages on her Cell Phone and informed them she will no longer be using her Cell Phone. Some of you may have already seen a text message sent by me from Wendy’s cell phone.
We usually watch Independence Day every year on July 4th, but by the time we got Wendy situated she was ready for bed again. Today was an extreme effort for her to do anything. She is extremely frustrated as for the last week she’s been having more and more trouble doing things she used to do before. She can no longer boot and log in to her computer (I have to do it for her) and often by the time the computer is booted she can’t remember what she was going to do on it.
Anyone who wants to get a hold of her is going to have to call our land line and I will handle incoming calls for her in case she’s sleeping or not feeling like talking. Ironically, everyone keeps asking me how I am doing and so I posted this blog entry on my blog. I didn’t realize at the time what I was in for. Up to now I thought I knew what to expect from Wendy’s progression with the cancer. I expected her to be more run down, to feel more sick, to cough more and be more limited in what she can do and for these things to get worse as time went on.
What I didn’t expect was for her to so quickly (matter of days) have trouble talking. I didn’t expect for her to have trouble filling out an address, unable to spell words she’s known for many years. I didn’t expect that she would not only be unable to operate her PC, but unable to send a text message or place a phone call. I didn’t expect to see the look of frustration and anguish on her face when I went into her room and realized she was having major issues and couldn’t even summon help. Last night was a real eye opener and very difficult to handle. I can’t even describe. It is so hard to watch a once strong woman diminished in capacity like this.